Of knowing owns body and eating

Jo Von was all the while the more "spiritual" one.
When i was pregnant with her, i started to crave for pineapple which i have never like to take a single bite all through my life.
During that time too, i get nausea with cheese and dairy products which i has been craving for the past 30 years. From then on, i cut it out.
She was like always sure of what she can eat and how much to eat. She disliked mushroom but i always cut them in smaller bites and stuff in her meal. Sometimes she realized, sometimes no.
Few weeks ago i fried mee hoon with some mushroom. She took it for lunch but she got feverish during evening time and vomited. Sprout and vege and mee hoon seemed to have digested well and didnt came out, but not mushroom. Every single piece of the mushroom was out....in the complete cut pieces.

Told myself: i wont force her to take the food that her body cant take anymore. Perhaps i do not know well enough about her body as well as she is.

Observing and contemplating living creatures - Crawling down with compassion

We saw a big snail crawling down the wall.
Jo Ee, "will it fall?"
Jo Von, "i wont la, it has legs to suck on the wall."
Jo Ee, "What happen if we touch it?"
Jo Von, "I want to touch it, but i wont touch it, coz if i touch it, it will fall. And the shell will crack."
--- I guess when a kid have more time to be spent with the nature, naturally compassion will grow and they dont have to be taught on being kind to other beings. Compassion, loving kindness are grown inertly through nature and nurture.
Still, having more time, more leisure time to contemplate moments like these is the KEY.

Observing and contemplating living creatures - Looking beyond the compound eye

Not remembering which day was it, we moved out Jo Von table to the balcony so that she could draw at her own pace and space under the big blue sky.
I was cooking and heard her calling out loud: Mummy, mummy, come quickly and see! There is a big fly!
It took me sometime to finish cutting the veges before going out to see what was really going on.
Well, well, it was certainly a jumbo fly came visiting! A size of Jo Von thumb!
On one note: i was saying "We seldom see that kind of living creature flying around."
On another note: i heard my heart murmuring, "Would we be able to observe this little living creature looking at us with its compound eyes IF she is still in the kindy NOW?"
Well, maybe yes, but surely we know if there is any such chance, she may be able to see the fly came flying in but before it flew out, we will be calling her to get going "FASTER", "faster" and "faster". --- get going to school faster, get going to bath faster, etc....otherwise we will be late.
"LATE"? Did i mention about LATE?
"BEING LATE" --- a connotation that build the society to "KIASUism".

Improvising and making transformation at 5

I remembered i did my first scale transformation when i was doing Grade 5 theory at the age of approximately 14 yrs old. And little did i realize that i could actually improvise and make transformation on songs so that they are a few keys lower or higher. I read notes well and i could sight read, but that lacking of musical appreciation doesn't qualify myself as a music learner.
But being a homeschooler herself, Jo Von, has all the time that she could have with the piano.
She can't read any notes yet coz we have not exposed her to proper piano lesson. We did try once to send her to Miss Ho class when she was about 4 year old but she wasnt that ready and she asked to stop. We agreed and told her she could learn later when she is ready to attend the piano lesson again.
But this morning, amazingly she told us there were many ways of playing Mary Had A Little Lamb. She was actually playing the song with C major, then D major(with the F# key!!) and G major!
It surprised me on how well she had learned herself!
Homeschool works, doesnt it?

Sending a mail to my mama friends

Dear Choo Wei/Mei Yin/Siaw Ling/Juan2/Hwa Siew/Yen/Choon Er/Ying/Seow Ling,
As i stumbled upon this blog of my friend cum customer, i thought of u all. :)
Adelyn;s blog: http://lovengratitude.blogspot.com/

As an ex-working mother, i must say i 'regretted' not having 'enough' time for my elder one.
Now thinking back the time spent with her when she was 3-6 yrs old, i must say it was quite blank.... except for some 'rushing', 'rushing' and 'rushing' and endless 'rushing' time for everything and anything.

It touched my heart to see my friend's words on:
"I am deeply grateful to be given this time to slow down, smell the roses and peer at the earthworms in the grass."

This morning as i was 'cangkul'ing the soil to move my corn to bigger patch, we saw a big slimy earthworm moving around. My 5 yr old told me, if we cut it into 2 will it become 2 cacing? I said i dont know. And then i moved the tomato tree to bigger patch...hoping i can turn my little garden into Cameron.... Just praying that red tomato, no matter how small it will be, will start blooming, coz it was my 5 yr old who planted the tomato in the pot earlier. I was ever so glad to have that no-rushing moment of peace. But looking back at my elder 8 yr old, she was just looking down at us as she is still preparing for her school exam tomorrow.
No high expectation on her, but if there was more time spent when she was younger, how i wished i could give her more moment like this.

We got some tadpoles back from Bodhi Heart today, going to plant some lotus to keep them tomorrow. :)

Nothing much here, just thought, as mothers, perhaps you may be curios over other people lives as much i do. :)

Have a blessed day!

--- Living in the present moment is the happiest moment. :)


with joy & metta, Sin Dee

“为什么一定一定要有蚊子呢？“ -- 小柔

睡前一面刷牙就一面听小柔望着冲凉房里飞来飞去的蚊子问，
“为什么一定一定要有蚊子呢？”
语气中就是觉得为什么那么麻烦要有蚊子，然后又让我们困惑与要打又不是，不打又不是的决定。

（其实自从我们装了蚊帐和捕蚊器，蚊子的问题是明显少了，但绝不是因为有了这两者，而是就算有蚊子在房里飞来飞去，它也似乎不对我们的血液有兴趣了。总是就在原地。但是毕竟是孩子，所以还是会因为常听大人谈“有蚊子，离开这里。”所以就偶有谈蚊色变的后遗症。）

是呀，我也想知道为什么一定要有蚊子。。。。心想，不过还没来得及回应她，就听到她跟姐姐说，“如果有一本叫【为什么一定】就好了。”

“有啊，有一本书叫十万个为什么。”
妹妹：“哇，是啊，我要看，我要看。”
姐姐：“我知道是google。"
我：“书在阿kong家。改天我们去拿。”

----
孩子睡了，我也找上了我的百科全书Google，原来蚊子是整个环境生态的一个重要环节，是它给了虫子鸟儿食物。曾经有一个地区将所有的蚊子给灭了，结果不出一阵子，当地的其他生物也跟着完蛋了。

大自然的疗愈：茅草

和YJ还有两个小瓜回到离我家不到50步的小学母校的草场踢球。
除了爬树，还光着脚赛跑。
叫小柔滚一辊，她就在草地上滚了。还滚了好几圈。想起extra lesson里强调的孩子在硬的地上滚动是很好的运动。
后来玩了一个滚球比赛。
8岁的姐姐还喜欢有竞争的游戏，可5岁的小柔就还没到那阶段玩这游戏。
因为滚得不必姐姐远，所以就嘟起嘴来。
也是劝都劝不来。
她赌气坐在草地上，我陪她坐着。
随手拔起来一根茅草，告诉她小茅草喜欢跟人，喜欢黏在衣服裤子上跟我们回家，也把茅草刻意的黏在她衣服上。随着也把刚才那股气撵走。
前后不到5分钟的僵持，就这么容易降服在大自然的茅草下。^.^

大自然的疗愈：万年青

舅舅不懂说了小柔什么，弄得她和姐姐一直不高兴，姐姐中招少，一下就没事了，小柔大概是被惹得较多，就一直嘟着嘴，叫她去吃饭，也不肯理睬。
后来，我采了一叶万年青，对她唱一首barney的歌，“i love you,you love you, we are happy family,with a great big hug and a kiss from you,wont you say you love me too.送你一个love，等下你可以切菜煮mamamasak."
随即小柔的脸就笑了。怎么就这么简单呢？
比说道理还好用呢？

大自然的疗愈：绿豆

小柔柔不懂生谁的气，本来好好的，突然就哭丧着脸在发闷气。
其实换成别天，我肯定又喝她为什么发脾气了。
但今天是我们选择homeschool后的第三天。
对我而言，是让我重新学习与她有更多相处时间的机会，尤其是在早上，因为小妤上课了，就只有爸爸和我和小柔。
爸爸在忙着电脑，我在忙着准备午餐，我们似乎都有充分的不耐烦的理由。但这是一个学习的机会，不是我“骂”或“宠”的时刻。
最后我决定俯下身抱抱小柔，在她耳边轻轻告诉她，“妈咪知道你会不习惯多点在家没去幼儿园的日子，妈咪也还在学习和你多点时间一起的日子。。。来，你要不要帮我采外面熟了的绿豆？”
她点点头，脸也没那么皱了。
我走回厨房。她朝向天台，再进来时脸上只有满满的笑容，“妈咪，你看，我采了那么多绿豆！”
绿豆，都发闷气，好像很管用哦！^.^

let go of perfect

Found this words, "I also found happiness in learning to be a “good enough” mother and teacher, and learned to let go of perfect." in a blog.
I was hearing my heart trembled with joy and tears.
Joy coz i think i just found myself in a situation of "trying to be a perfect" mother.
Tears coz i think i am letting go the thought of "being a perfect" mother.
It is so touched and also full of some degree of worry(not fear).... but who knows what will happen tomorrow?
All will be answered with my prayers......
I have worries, but so what, they are not out of fear.
But simply due to not-knowing-what will happen tomorrow.
May i be blessed with strength and peace and harmony.